Cyn Santana Cries Watching Joe Budden Proposal: "I Really Wanted My Family"

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The new season of "Love & Hip Hop New York" is upon us.

Ahead of the two-hour Love & Hip Hop New York premiere, VH1 took its cast members through a walk down memory lane. Some people sat and watched old footage of themselves fighting and carrying on, but Cyn Santana's moment could be considered the most emotional. It was around this time last year when Joe proposed to Cyn during a live broadcast of his podcast with Rory and Mal. The moment was captured by Love & Hip Hop cameras and was featured on the show's last season, but since then, the pair have decided to call off their engagement. They've since gone their separate ways and are working on a healthy co-parenting relationship.

Months ago, Cyn chatted with Tiffany "New York" Pollard about her split from Joe, saying that it was a decision she had to make for her future. "I did what was best for my mental health, for my peace, and for me and my son," she stated at the time. "Basically, let's just sat that I'm probably the happiest that I've ever been. And that was probably the best decision I've made in my entire life in the 26 years I've been living on this earth. The best decision I made was leaving that relationship, and my son and I are amazing."

While watching footage of Joe's proposal recently along with loving highlights of their relationship, Cyn became so overwhelmed with emotion that she walked off. Out of frame, Cyn can be heard sobbing as a producer tells her, "It's okay." The same producer offers her a hug as Cyn continues to cry. "It's so hard," she said between tears. "I really wanted my family."  The producer told her, "You can still work on your family." Cyn replied, "It's not the same. I'm not going back out there." 

When she returned to the set, Cyn has composed herself. "It's been a year since this," she said. "That was just a really beautiful moment for me. I'm sad and disappointed and...it's just hard. It's hard when you really want things to work and they're not working on your time or according to your plan. I got faith and hope for days and years and at the end of the day, that's the father of my son. Family is super important to me. It's different now." Watch below.


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Since 2019, Erika Marie has worked as a journalist for HotNewHipHop, covering music, film, television, art, fashion, politics, and all things regarding entertainment. With 20 years in the industry under her belt, Erika Marie moved from a writer on the graveyard shift at HNHH to becoming a Features Editor, highlighting long-form content and interviews with some of Hip Hop’s biggest stars. She has had the pleasure of sitting down with artists and personalities like DJ Jazzy Jeff, Salt ’N Pepa, Nick Cannon, Rah Digga, Rakim, Rapsody, Ari Lennox, Jacquees, Roxanne Shante, Yo-Yo, Sean Paul, Raven Symoné, Queen Naija, Ryan Destiny, DreamDoll, DaniLeigh, Sean Kingston, Reginae Carter, Jason Lee, Kamaiyah, Rome Flynn, Zonnique, Fantasia, and Just Blaze—just to name a few. In addition to one-on-one chats with influential public figures, Erika Marie also covers content connected to the culture. She’s attended and covered the BET Awards as well as private listening parties, the Rolling Loud festival, and other events that emphasize established and rising talents. Detroit-born and Long Beach (CA)-raised, Erika Marie has eclectic music taste that often helps direct the interests she focuses on here at HNHH. She finds it necessary to report on cultural conversations with respect and honor those on the mic and the hardworking teams that help get them there. Moreover, as an advocate for women, Erika Marie pays particular attention to the impact of femcees. She sits down with rising rappers for HNHH—like Big Jade, Kali, Rubi Rose, Armani Caesar, Amy Luciani, and Omerettà—to gain their perspectives on a fast-paced industry.

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